Back in May, I started this blog. I don’t think I had a real solid idea of what I wanted it to be, I just wanted to have a blog. I spent a couple of weeks going over name ideas and one always stuck out to me. Bustling Grace. I liked the way it sounded. It was feminine and pretty. And I thought it kind of described me. Boy, was I wrong.
You see, in May when I started this blog, I was not a Christian. I could feel God trying to come in to my life, but I kept saying “No, not right now. Maybe later.” In July, I finally gave in. I finally came to terms with the broken human that I was and realized that I desperately needed His Grace. I always considered myself to be graceful, but I was using the wrong definition. Sure, I was pretty nice to people, even when they probably didn’t deserve it, but my heart was not full of grace. When people hurt me (i.e., friends, strangers, my husband) I was the opposite of graceful. I would get so upset by whatever someone said to me that I would cut ties with said person and no longer speak to them. Or in the case of my husband, I would try to fight fire with fire, or lock myself in my bedroom and bottle up my anger/hurt in bed with Netflix. I would hold on to things and burry them in my heart to bring up later whenever he hurt me again. I tried to say that I was graceful in the way that I carried myself, but I was not even that. I was an incredibly insecure, appearance obsessed, judging, depressed individual. The change that took place in me once I accepted God’s grace was astronomical. I was finally able to understand what grace was once I accepted Christ as my Savior.
Here’s the truth about grace- grace is something from God that is freely given to us even though we don’t deserve it. We can do nothing to earn this incredible gift given to us by our Father. We can’t earn it. We can’t get rid of it. It’s a gift that truly keeps on giving. and giving. and giving. God’s grace is everlasting. We are by no means God, but we are of Him, and we should strive to share his grace with everyone. Whether they deserve it or not. We should strive to be graceful in the things we say, the things we do, the way we treat others, the way we carry ourselves, etc.
I think me naming this blog Bustling Grace was a hint from Him. His grace is always flowing and moving. It’s bustling and never ending. Grace is my favorite thing to read about in my bible. To know that no matter how many times I fail or waiver, His grace never runs out on me. Paul Tripp said “I think my job is to make the grace of an invisible God visible, wherever I am.” I could not agree with this statement more. I believe that it’s my job as a follower of Christ to try my hardest to show Grace to everyone, everywhere, all the time. And I think this blog can be the perfect outlet for that. Of course, I’m not perfect and I am bound to fail every now and then, but that’s the beauty of grace. It’ll always be there to lift me back up. And to lift you up.
One of my 2016 goals is to actually commit to blogging and to really turn this blog in to something, even if it’s just an outlet to get all of my thoughts out. I need a creative outlet that’s not business oriented and I would love a place to possibly share the Word with others. I hope that this place can be it. I hope that this blog can be a place of growth and inspiration for both me and those of you reading this.
Here’s to a new year, a new blog, and lots of bustling grace. <3